Downtime
Jess mounted the stepladder beside the column then helped another worker secure the explosive charge to the side of the column. Surprisingly he was relaxed, sure of himself after all these years.
"It appears you've still got the knack for this kind of work."
He nodded. "It's like riding a bicycle: once you learn you never forget."
"I guess you learned well, Jess. I guess both of us did."
For the past three years, Jess had been sitting at his desk on Friday afternoons, sipping a mug of coffee, sorting through and reviewing different policy claims, and not once had he ever experienced this kind of satisfaction in his work. He felt at this moment as if he had really been doing something that mattered, not simply putting in time until it was five o'clock and he could go home. Suddenly he considered the possibility of leaving the insurance business and going to work for Midge on a regular basis, even though he knew Alma would object, not wanting him to be on the road all the time and fearing he might become injured working with explosives. He tried to shake the idea from his thoughts, but it remained there, like a dull ache at the back of his head.
* * *
That evening, at dinner, Jess told Alma that he had been invited inside the Dakota the night before the blast to help Midge attach the firing mechanisms to the explosive charges. He was barely able to contain his enthusiasm as he told her, nervously tapping his steak knife against the edge of the table. "He also invited me to watch the blast with him from the command post," he said.
"I'd assumed you were going to watch it with me."
He looked at her, his face clouded with confusion. "I didn't know you were really interested in watching it. You never acted as if you were."
"Maybe you weren't listening to me, Jess."
"Oh, I was listening all right. I was listening with both ears, and you weren't showing the slightest bit of interest until just now."
She swung her legs out from under the kitchen table, leaning back a little in her chair. "You really want to go, don't you?"
"Well, I told Midge I'd help him out, and I don't see any reason to renege now."
Her eyes sizzled in anger. "I mean, Jess, you want to go away from here . . . from me . . . from this child of yours I am carrying."
"Don't be ridiculous."
"I know you, Jess. You'd leave with your Army friend in a heartbeat if he asked you because you find things here too small and confining."
Jess slumped in his chair, his shoulders turning in as if he were suddenly being embraced by someone. "I can't deny I've thought about it, sure. But it's not because I want to leave you or the child. It's because I believe I could provide a better life for us with the money I'd be making with Midge."
"This time if you go," she fumed, "don't expect me to be coming after you. Not this time, Jess."
"Oh, don't be ridiculous," he said again, wondering if she might be right after all.
* * *
It was dusk. The first floor of the Dakota Building was almost as dark as the basement. Carefully workers crept across the dusty floor, making the final preparations for the implosion tomorrow morning.
Jess, holding a flashlight, watched as Midge rigged a firing mechanism to the base of another column, considering to himself whether he really wanted to go to work for Midge as he had speculated the other afternoon. He thought so but he wasn't sure. Obviously the demolitions business didn't promise to make him rich or famous, but it did offer at least the prospect of gaining the sort of attention and prosperity he could never gain working in an insurance office. If not a step into the spotlight, he thought, it was at least a step out of the shadows.
Moments later, as they moved on to rig another column, a worker came up to Midge. "We've had an unexpected visitor, boss."
Midge sighed with irritation. "Who is it now? Another neighbor trying to take pictures of the inside of the building?"
"Not quite, boss," the man grinned. "A kid was spotted climbing the fence at the north end and throwing something into the building."
"What was it?"
"He said it was just a stick so we checked it out, but instead of a stick we found a dead snake."
"What?"
T.R. Healy was born and raised in the Pacific Northwest, and his stories have appeared in such publications as BAP Quarterly, Flask and Pen, Superstition Review, and Tulip.
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